Blog Anniversary!

Well, I was doing some research last week and found out that today is Pardon The Interruption's Blog Anniversary! So without further adieu, here is some self backslapping for how good my blog has been. Okay, okay, in reality my blog hasn't been that good lately. I haven't kept it up like I would like to. Maybe I've just been busy with school (which is going good- evaluated for the first time Monday and have had a couple students this week mention about how my class is their favorite because I actually "teach"), maybe I've just not had a lot of good ideas to blog about, maybe I've been waiting for this anniversary to rejuvenate myself. I can think of one reason though.

About two months ago now I wrote a blog about the beginning of school and how I feel very uncomfortable with myself sometimes. A good friend of mine from Lineville Schools told me last year that where ever I go in the future to assert myself more...don't worry about being liked and do what you are good at because I am. That has stuck with me, but I still have problems seeing what others see in me. I have awesome friends who could pump me up all day if need be, but I still don't see that in myself. Part of that comes from my upbringing...my parents always taught me and little sis to be humble and don't get in over your head with yourself. Good advice and I love my parents (something I don't tell them enough) but every once in awhile you need to have an attitude about what you are good at. Another part of why I dont feel comfortable with myself is my work ethic. I spend a lot of hours working at school, but sometimes not very effective. I also am at this point concerned about having "my time" more so than a lot of other things. I just want to come home and sit down. I don't even like having to go to the store sometimes. I just wish I could push myself more. There are plenty of things I would like to get into, like a good workout plan, but I always seem to fall out of pattern. Kinda like this blog. I say "oh, I'll keep it up a lot better" then I don't. Part of this just falls into the category of "I have a job that requires a lot of time." Lastly on my list of reasons for not "being confident in myself" is that I'm lonely. I hardly know anyone here, a lot of the other teachers have families, and I'm just tired of coming home and talking to myself. I know that "someone" will eventually come for me, but I sure as heck hope she comes quick. ;) Not that it will solve problems magically, but I have discussed with a friend about how when I have a girlfriend or an "interest" that I have a "swagger" to myself. In high school many friends would have described me as cocky. Not that it is good to be cocky or what I'm looking to be...but I just wish I could find/get my "groove" back.

Wow, that was quite the anniversary blog. Thanks for reading. I'm most certainly not in a "depression" and my spirits are always pretty high (except for around 2:30 pm last Saturday after the Hawkeyes lost), but just some things I would like to improve on myself and why not an anniversary to start that building/searching.